Catching Up with Myself

The following post was stuck in edit mode, and had been written in October, 2009:



Lately, instead of writing, I have been playing games on my computer. For hours upon hours, I sit in front of this screen and play the same games over and over, thinking of the things I could be writing instead of puting those thoughts in print. It's gotten to be too many thoughts to write about just one of them, and I don't have the energy to write more than one blog entry, so here it is, whatever it is...

It amazes me that I can remember distinct moments from 15 years ago, like they were yesterday. Two people with whom I was acquainted that long ago passed away within the last two weeks, and the memory of a certain moment spent with of them became so vivid...it's just weird.

Also, I've been in touch with a close friend from 10 years ago, who I will actually get to see this week, which has brought up memories of that whole group of friends. The time that I knew these folks was the beginnings of the stormy season of my life, to which I never want to return, but I would not be who I am today without those years. And like the deaths, knowing that I am about to see my friend again has brought back memories of that time--I've found it rather draining, really.

I went on my annual shopping trip this past weekend, leaving the boys home with my hubby for some guy time. Had some fun girl time with my mom and the other ladies on the trip, got some good buys, got all of the Christmas shopping for my hubby done, got the younger boys' next birthday gifts, got some clothes, got a new comforter (love the comforter--it matches the wood in my bedroom furniture beautifully), got appointed the official DVD go to person on the bus, and failed at fixing the DVD player in the middle of "The Devil Wears Prada", much to the dissapointment of all on board. Oh, well--successful trip anyway!

My hubby has been wonderful lately--ungrouchy, interested in the kids, more responsible, funny, caring, and more relaxed. It is a beautiful thing. I'm very happy about these changes he has been making for himself. The one downside: I can't get away with anything anymore! It's great!

Going back to school gets pushed further away from my current priorities almost every day. I found what would be a good fit: online courses for a graduate degree in Social Policy. Working in health care and with income tax credits has opened my eyes to some major flaws in the system. But now is not the time.